Leave it alone. You're digging your hole even deeper, I foresee a ban unless you quit whining and accept that you've fucked up.
Hide, lay low for a few years and come back after you've checked your mindset and mental health.
If you feel bullied, maybe the internet isn't for you. Who remembers Switches?
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